He spent about an hour with me, then at the end told me that he wanted to be my Doctor and help me attain my goal of: going to P.T. and walking again! But, as he said, 'he planned to be there for me and help me get and stay healthy! He:(Dr. Allcott) Increased my Gabapentin (Neurontin) to a therapeutic level and increased my Motrin to 800mg 3 times a day, instead of PRN. He said next month we'd talk more about other pain meds, but it's a start! I'm really hoping that these changes will bring down the baseline pain, at the very least!
I was so relieved when I left there, although it ended up being a 31/2 hour appointment, then the 1/2 hour ride home, I was hurting but on cloud 9!

Yesterday was my first appointment with a new Counselor: Sandi. It turned out that she used to be my Counselor 7 years ago, during a much darker time for me! She would come out to my home every week because I was so depressed and wallowing in my own self-pity that I wouldn't leave the house!
She was surprised and very happy to see all the major changes in me! To be quite honest, when I look back on how I was even just this past February I'm quite shocked at the changes in myself! I have a much more positive outlook on life and the major thing is; I want to Live!

I wish he'd hurry up and get the internet, cuz there's so much I want to show him about me. He will be ecstatic, no doubt! The poor kid, well; young man, spent the last 8 years listening to a Mom whose only outlook on life was negative and whose whole 'being' was sending out nothing but negative energy!
I hope and Pray constantly that he will be able to forgive me for all I put him through!
I really hate showing this picture because of how incredibly fat I was, but, the one to look at is my Blessed Son: Vincent
God Bless Him, he was always my rock! Always there to listen to me and to let me know how ridiculous I was being! I miss my boy sooooo much it hurts! But, I realize now that he is in a much better place! He's on a young man's adventure...working hard, living hard and learning every step of the way!
I just wish, being hope that he could come visit me before too long! I don't know how long I can handle not seeing him. He's my heart! and he carries a piece of my heart with him wherever he goes!
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