I wish this weren't so, I don't like snapping at people! I prefer to be as pleasant as possible to people at all times, but sometimes the pain just makes me irritable and I can't control it, though I do try! I know it sounds like an excuse, but believe me; it's the truth!
My pain level in the past 2 weeks has been much worse. I think it has something to do with: A. the stress of waiting to go to a new Doctor: B. the horribly cold, wet, windy weather we're having and: C. Tiffany;One of the caregivers, has moved out!
She left yesterday and it was really heart-wrenching! She was such a sweet, caring presence here. But, she's onto bigger and better things! She joined the Air Force and is getting ready to take off for boot camp in a couple of weeks. She's going to be working in Intelligence, so I don't really worry too much about her getting hurt overseas!
With any luck, she wont even go over there! But, I'll be praying for her! I've only known her for 2 months, but I really care about her like one of my kids!
I learned a long time ago that showing others you're in pain only causes them to show you one of two faces: Pity or Doubt! Neither of which I can tolerate. I hide my pain well! Not just physical pain either, but emotional. For the most part, people really don't want to see or hear about your problems!I find this to be unfortunate, but we, as a society, has become intolerant to the suffering around us.
I often wonder if it could possibly get any worse? Or maybe somehow, someday, it will get better? All we can do is try to get through to others around us and Pray!
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